Theology Evolved?

I read a book once called "Who You Are When No One's Looking" by Bill Hybels... It is a book on Character. About being real, to yourself, and to others.

I post a decent amount of stuff on this blog, but not about what is going on with me I think.

So here is the deal...

I am going to be real about myself to you guys. I am going to post 3 real things I think I need improving on, and three things I think I do pretty good.

So...

Improvements:

1) I bite my nails... I know kinda ridiculous, but I think it is a stupid habit and I need to kick it.

2) I try and get into every conversation within a 10 foot radius of me. It isn't my business so I shouldn't try to mind it.

3) I rush people, I try and put everybody on my timer, and the world does not revolve around me.

Things I do pretty good:

1) I will be your friend, not your acquaintance, your friend, I will care and I will bend over backwards to help you if I think I can.

2) I read really fast, I love it because I retain it too. So you want me to go over something you wrote, I can read it and get back to you quickly.

3) I have a big picture mentality 98% of the time. Occasionally I fall into my own microcosm but not often. I try and get everything to happen together.

So there you go a little bit about me.


And the other big reason I wrote this, I need prayer.

I want to be in full time ministry, ministering to young people... I want to be a Youth Pastor. But I need it to be full time. My mentality runs along the lines of once you get me past halfway I am all the way. I can do 3/4 I go straight to full.

So please, be praying that God will open the doors for Karina and I to minister to the youth somewhere full-time.

Okay so here is the low down. up until a little over a month ago I had been desperately seeking a relationship. And being continually shut down. It's true, I was ready, I was really wanting to begin to pour into something, and it was not happening.

But when I finally gave up, began to sign the papers for perpetual monasticity, she found me. A friendship, a little myspace comment to catch up, one phone call catching up, some times hanging out, a frightening and yet exciting conversation with her, repeat but 5 times more frightening conversation with parents (those conversations always are, if you aren't scared, you don't care) and grace brought me a wonderful, I dare say amazing woman.

I don't deserve her, I could not earn her if my life depended upon it, but she is here, and much like many times grace acts in our lives, I accept it. I don't understand it, but I am not one to argue with grace. So she is in my life, I am very excited, very happy, and yes still very scared. This relationship has a whole new dynamic to it, I am not repared for it, I bungle it up, stumble and hit my head on a low beam from time to time, but I am gonna fight, I am gonna persevere. This one is gonna challenge me, it already is. But my desire to fight for it, it is strong, and so I will.

Please pray for me, about this, that I will be strong, that I will be sensitive to where God leads me in it, that I will be sensitive to her, that I will be strong, that I will be a good MAN, that I won't screw it up.

Thanks for caring. :)